Most people don't remember the first time they truly experienced unconditional love.  We think we do, but often we just let it slide by just how memory usually does.  

There is one point in my life that I truly can say always reminds me of what unconditional love feels like and that was the day my son was born. 

When he arrived crying into the world, I remembered as I was a student of spirit at the time, what I was told. When we are born, we have for a time all our memories of our past life. We have awareness within but our body is new and strange and we are trying to figure out how to make it work for us so we can communicate to the world who and what we are.  As they cleaned him up, let his mother see him and then rushed him away to take all his vitals and measurements, they asked me to follow.  I was all eyes, looking him over from head to toe. Counting each finger, each toe, looking at the being before me, old in spirit, young in body and I was in awe and truly in the midst of unconditional love.  I reached into the Isolette as they said he was a little blue and need to go under some light. He had some big lungs at that time as he screamed at the world, letting all he felt out, just looking for a little understanding.  I put my hands on his head and chest and whispered to him.  "It is all right, I am here for you as I will always be. I know your confused and frustrated, but I am here for you and you will be alright."  He suddenly quieted down and the nurse said, " You sure know how to parent already, he is listening to you."  I smiled and just continued to hold his head and my hand on his chest.  

We go through life all the time not noticing moments of unconditional love.  We say it to people, "I love you," or "I just love you, your so special."  But what are you really saying?  Is it unconditional or do you love them for what they do for you?  Did they respond in kind?  Did they really feel it or just nod and continue on?  Acts of unconditional love really have no conditions.  You don't say it with thoughts of getting it back. If you do, you placed a condition. "I just said I love you and I want it in return!"  That is what it is really saying!  But you see unconditional love, fills you up so completely that it constantly presents you with more love than you really know.  When we doubt love, we doubt what and who created us.  When we honestly don't love unconditionally we are presenting a thought that it has no importance to me unless I get something out of it.  People give up on love all the time because they placed conditions on it that wasn't met and thus decided it isn't worth taking the risk trying to love someone who won't give it back.  But who you need to love first unconditionally to receive it in turn is yourself.  You have to love your self beyond measure. Love yourself more than anyone ever will because you are here in the world. Love yourself for all you have been through and all you will go through. Love yourself through you Victories as well as your so called failures.  You receive love, when you are a beacon of it.  That is unconditional love. No conditions, just love. 

Practice taking a few moments out of each day, especially when you get up and just say I love you to your self.  Say a few affirmations about your strengths and acknowledge weakness but that you will over come it. You are not a failure in love, it is just waiting, unconditionally, on you.

Happy February,

Steve